Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Spring Sunset.


Walking alongside the busy highway.. I take a slight left turn and angle myself towards the west side of the lake, here I find a lonely bench amongst trees, over looking the completely still water and the slowly melting snow. In front of me, I see a narrow, shallow cliff upon which I choose to sit. I glance at the beauty in front of me, and breathe the brisk, clean air. Suddenly three birds fly into my view and they gracefully float down, inches above the water. I watch as they glide for several feet before their feet all synchronize and touch the water at the exact moment. Mesmerized, I watch the glass water break and echo for what seems like all of eternity. The sky is a subtle orange now, the sun slowly setting behind the mountains that hold my comfort. Nearly twenty minutes later the hundredth car probably drives by, this one much louder than the rest, because I now find myself cold, and stuck back inside reality. It doesn't take long however, to be sucked back into the breath-taking image in front of me. For whatever reason the image of the lake brings back millions and millions of memories with nothing but the slightest glance. I'm stuck inside the concept of tranquility when someone on his cell phones walks by... Thankfully, my peaceful music blares out his useless talk..he is blind to the masterpiece unfolding in front of him and clueless that there is no other thing quite like this place. I question momentarily as to what I may do next year when I don't have my comfort place to sit and unwind. I tell myself that I can always come back, but I cannot be convinced otherwise..Although this spring sunset is definitely not the first I've experienced, for whatever reason I cannot pull myself away from its beauty. It's flawless and entirely peaceful. This image is permanently imprinted in my mind, for that I am sure. Perhaps I can take this as a sign, spring is here, and it's going to be beautiful. The year ahead will perfectly fly by, floating over the water until that exact moment where all tings collide seamlessly and become one. I have no sense of temperature, no sense of time. For whatever reason, I am stuck. Motionless. Hypnotized. The sky is a faint purple, the clouds a light pink, the water rolling slowly up to the rocks lightly covered with the last snowfall. The reflection in the water makes the sky look even more remarkable than the sky itself. As I gaze off I realize...it's dark now. And though not a single part of me knows why, I stand up, turn for one more look. And I seize this moment that I am given, and that I am so thankful for. I take a deep breath..walk back toward the bench that greeted my welcoming, I turn the corner...

Monday, March 22, 2010

Hold your hand.

I walk past you, it makes my day.
One hug from you, everything's okay.
I live for catching a single glance,
the ongoing struggle to keep my stance..
The feeling I get when I'm near your warmth.
The ongoing rush inside my heart.
I wonder however, if you feel the same.
If at any point you could drop the game.
If you knew how much the things you do,
really make me fall for you ...
How the slightest touch can drive me nuts..
and the things you do and all I want.
Kinda weird to realize how much you really run my life..
kinda sad to understand, just look for a way..
to hold your hand.

Exactly what you wanted....

Inspiration, lovely. Dreams, gone.
Trying to not feel so alone.
If I could I would remove you.
and throw away the key...
If I could I would just hold you.
and never press delete.
Nightmares, awful. Breathing, hard.
I find it hard to make a move.
Those days replay inside my head...
thoughts of you...just wont go away.
I'm starting to feel like I don't even make sense.
starting to see the ridiculousness in my measures.
trying to realize that I knew all of this..
all along.
I guess I'll say I'm sorry, not for anything I did.
But for being stupid enough to trust you,
Stupid enough to hold your hand.
Stupid enough to get attached.
I guess I'll say I'm sorry, for nothing really.
Hope you're happy, actually no
I hope youre miserable.
I hope you regret this someday, or now.
I hope you don't forget the times we had...and remember
That at one time. It's EXACTLY what you wanted....

Monday, March 15, 2010

Dreams. Come. True.

When does life become much more, and
dreams come true, you reach the shore.
It's so dumb to think we know all there is
this world's too large, all we can do is live.
No sense in thinking we create whats real
Perceptions not reality, but more how you feel..
It's besides the point to think that you're right
It's more about fullfillment, a constant life's fight.
If you truly believe you can create a dream..
Change the world, remove the screen.
It doesn't take much more than believing it so,
not listening to people when told where to go.
One step at a time, just take a deep breath..
Don't lose faith in your dreams, ingnore every threat.
Take what you learn and apply it to life.
Wake in the morning, refect every night.
Sing song in rejoice for the things that you do,
Don't forget the people who will be there for you.
If you think you can do it, well you probably can...
If you believe in your dreams, it all goes hand in hand.
It's quite hard to believe all is coming to end.
That all we once knew was really pretend.
Real life begins now, a hard thought to grasp on..
our life on this Earth has barely begun.
So open the book that a new chapter begins,
face the world with an encouraging grin.
Laugh at fear, and smile today.
Reject perfection, watch what you say.
Think twice before you make your move.
Carefully plan the things that you do.
Don't stress about the simple things,
Show the world what you have to bring.
But most of all, just be yourself.
Never reject those who are there to help.
Always embrace the moments you have,
the things you've learned and made you sad.
Remember what you're here to do..
reach for the stars. Make dreams come true.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Remember the Days...

Remember the days..... when your biggest concern was who was next to you in line for recess. When a sewer was filled with tarantulas... When pretend was easy, and normal. When running around in circles was your favorite thing to do. When PE involved learning how to jump, and hop. When your homework was coloring pages. And you sang songs when class was over. I can't but look at these kids and wonder if I was like them when I was in kindergarten. I can't help but think of me and my friends and see how we are today, compared to where we came from. I look at these children and think about how they are going to be when they are my age. I almost feel bad for them, growing up in such a harsh world. Things are fallng apart here, and quick. Makes me not want children, because no one should have to be forced into this awful society. And they don't even realize it, because they don't care. They are so carefree, it's almsot dangerous. They don't understand the troubles their generation will face, they don't see beyond the playground, unless it's to the lunch room. I wish I could look at the sky and not think "Global Warming", I wish I could look at play money and not think of ways to make it real. I wish I could go back and just live one more lovely day with not a care in the world, and just be a kid again.