This is the story of a girl......

This is a small preview of the book I am writing. Let me know what you think :)




Sitting, unwanted.. I glance around at the bare, and empty surroundings. Never have I ever felt so alone, in such a public place. And not to mention that the world is quite busy around, in fact the sounds around me are constant reminders of civilization. However, no one wants to notice, no one wants to mention, no one wants to be around; me. A wise one once told me, and if ever he was right about one thing at all, it was this: she is mostly alone, and lonely. I hate to admit he said a single ounce of anything right in this world. And I hate to admit even more that no matter what it was that that egotistical liar did mention, I believed every single piece of it, with ease at that. It's not even a matter of relations from now. It's more a matter of being ignored, constantly. Riticuled, without fail. And denied, repeatedly.

The end of highschool did not come to much of a surprise for me, in fact in many ways it was a pure relief. I mean, after years of essentially side stepping society, leaving it can't be much of a sad affair. In a word, high school was a disaster. I spent most of my moments wishing I could get out of there, and even more moments striking against everything that it meant to be teenager. The thought process of a senior in high school could hardly be called intelligent and i found myself constantly realizing that I havven't learned a single piece of helpful information for the "real world" that we are entering. I surrounded my life around a common principle of meaning, and that is to trust no one, and I guess you can say that is the great majority of reason behind where I am today.

time to fleet.

perfection is lost behind the wall,
trying to catch me before i do fall.
not looking for much, just something to hold..
turn something new, into something old.
new feelings take over, but old thoughts won't let go.
I want you to leave me, i want you to go.

can't go outside without you driving on by..
can't leave the house without feeling you by my side.

the feel, bittersweet.
you're beyond me by now.
the thought, time to fleet.
please god, show me how.

Something MORE.

go away.
leave for now.
stay away.
remember how...
Days were long,
heavens gone,
I'm wanting something MORE.

Loss for words.
misplayed cords...
..trying to hear the song.
Stories told,
crossing fold.
For what, I am not sure.


Time to go,
lost the show.
I'm never coming back.
Where to go,
there I know,
I'm wanting something MORE.